if you have someone in your life who you can come to at your most
self-conscious and insecure and just vomit your emotions on with the
knowledge that they know who you are and who you can be and won’t have
their perceptions of you altered by it, treasure them. let them know how
much they mean to you. I spent a lot of years before I found people
like that and I have never stopped appreciating it. 
Sometimes I just really hate being an introvert.
Not only am I quiet but I struggle so much to get close to people. I’m naturally super distant, so even if I get talking ill probably never truly feel comfortable. I feel judged by almost all of my friends, like I have to watch my every word.
Everyone likes me from a distance but no one bothers to get close. I have chronic bitchface syndrome and come off as aloof so people are intimidated and don’t pursue a deep friendship, if anything. I’m so frequently deified(apparently people want to be like me???) but rarely receive some welcoming warmth. I’m not quiet because I think I’m beyond everyone, I just have nothing to say.
Too often my friends all hang out without me. When I ask why I’m never invited they insist it was a spur of the moment meeting and that can pass sometimes but the fact is that I am literally. Never. Invited. This happens in multiple friend groups too.
It’s like everyone likes me, but no one actually loves me.
It’s hard seeing people bond and have fun without you. It’s no way to live.
Not only am I quiet but I struggle so much to get close to people. I’m naturally super distant, so even if I get talking ill probably never truly feel comfortable. I feel judged by almost all of my friends, like I have to watch my every word.
Everyone likes me from a distance but no one bothers to get close. I have chronic bitchface syndrome and come off as aloof so people are intimidated and don’t pursue a deep friendship, if anything. I’m so frequently deified(apparently people want to be like me???) but rarely receive some welcoming warmth. I’m not quiet because I think I’m beyond everyone, I just have nothing to say.
Too often my friends all hang out without me. When I ask why I’m never invited they insist it was a spur of the moment meeting and that can pass sometimes but the fact is that I am literally. Never. Invited. This happens in multiple friend groups too.
It’s like everyone likes me, but no one actually loves me.
It’s hard seeing people bond and have fun without you. It’s no way to live.
Being in a relationship with someone is really different than being friends with someone, but I’ll never understand why.
And it’s really funny, once you get some distance from the situation,
that there was a time when you spoke to him everyday. And you were
consumed with fear when he didn’t contact you for a whole day and night.
It meant something was wrong, physically or emotionally. Two days and
it’s all you think about. Worry eats you.
There is no other relationship in your life that is like this. No
other interaction similar. Even though it would seem very friendly, you
are not a friend. It’s something else. Occasionally, my best friend and I
don’t talk for a whole week, and no one falls to pieces over it. It’s
just how it works.
Even though, besides sex, being in a relationship is almost exactly
like having a really good friend, it is ridiculously different.
And I find that really weird.
Ever had a friend that you once considered your best friend and they
considered you a best friend but you also know that when you’re not
around your best friend talks smack on you to her other so called “best
friends”? Doesn’t feel very good. 
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